I attended my first session of the Multicultural Business class today.

After receiving a stack of papers and due dates, I’m starting to feel like I got myself into something more than I can handle. Everything is so large and daunting; I don’t know if I can tackle all the stress of this whilst other obligations pile my way. Furthermore, I’m not the most confident in my group members, but I really want to pursue a leadership position. Should I step up and try assigning myself to being the leader of the group? The class is graded on constant scrutiny of its students. Those who perform get the grade – actually sounds rather cutthroat. Stepping up could mean a higher grade and overall benefits for me through doing something I thoroughly enjoy. However, I’m not too sure I can handle the task. I’m rather scared. Surely I’ll run into issues where people won’t follow through on their tasks. If this happens I don’t know how I would resolve it without making myself look like an a”hole, really defacing myself in front of the alumni, mentors, and rotary club members. Another obstacle would be those also seeking to get group leader status. How can I prove myself more deserving of them when I doubt myself even now?

Overall, this is just an entry of my anxiety. I want to feel accomplished and challenge myself to my highest potential, but I’m scared of the repercussions of failure. A natural response yet nonetheless difficult to overcome.