Does anyone else know how it feels like to study like mad, understand the material, then finish the exam in a breeze, only to discover that you got one of the lowest scores in the class?

Well. I do. And it feels like shit.

AAAAHHHHH!!!!
I’ve had so much random tangent stuff to blog about lately.
Here’s some bullet-point style just to cut to the chase:

Ditched karaoking w/ the roommates today in favor of quiet privacy. I ended up having a movie night all to myself where I found Babel to be a pretty good movie. It astounds me how the American image has degraded in the past several years. I wonder how its perception will change after 2009, rather how much it will struggle to reconstruct.

I think philosophy is the most pointless subject.

Yes, I know it’s good to be intellectually stimulated by discussing topics in-depth or whatev. But when we just keep going around and around in circles, I really don’t see the point. People are going to spend more time arguing about a solution than actually going out and doing something about it. Not only that, but I find it so meaningless when one has to question EVERY SINGLE THING around them, how can one actually just sit back and enjoy life for what it is. Like…you question the origin of the chair and the morality of making chairs and whether the production of chairs is essential to society or whatnot OMG HOW STUPID. I seem to be the only business major in this class. Maybe that’s why I don’t see the intricacies of it. Either way, at every lecture I complain to myself about how I am wasting my time but it’s too late to drop the course. No matter. I’ll just have to tough it out until the end of the quarter, and now I know never to touch a philosophy course again. I don’t even get the type of credits I need to fulfill anything toward my graduating. POINTLESS INDEED.

This was more of a rant entry than anything – now it’s off to my philosophy quiz section where I can listen to people argue about insignificant subjects for the next hour.

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UPDATE!

I cooked my own concoction for the first time tonight!
I’m so proud of myself wah h ah ahaha!!!

As a reward to myself for finishing my accounting midterm (regardless of the horrible grade), I watched ‘My Sassy Girl’ again. Gaaaaaaaaaaah I loved it just as much as when I watched it the first time.

Starting from this week it’s going to be a rollercoaster of schoolwork:
midterms every week, application deadlines, business writing exam.
This is looking to become one of the most miserable quarters yet…

I have begun my hermit phase once more.

나무

언젠가 우리 모습들도 사라져 다시 태어나죠
아마 난 소리없이 곁에 있을테죠. 언제나 늘처럼.
죽음보다 싫은 그대 잊음은 차라리 날 미워 해줘요
기나긴 시간이 더욱 모질게하면 내게 기대어서 울어요.
(그대 내게 기대어서)
제발 잊지말아요, 내 영혼은 그대 볼 수 있음에 내게 힘이되줘요.
그대 허물도 그대로 포근히 감싸줄께요.
내게 말을해봐요, 영원히곁에 기댈 수 있게 나를 지켜달라고 걱정하나요
그대로 평온한미소를 보내요. 내 사랑을…

I just got back from Canada, College Weekend @ Whistler.
Seriously…I haven’t had so much fun in a looong time.
Not since probably Convention my junior year in high school.

On a further note, it seems as if the snow has followed me back from the White North because it snowed in Seattle last night again. I would have never imagined that I’d live in a city of snow. From the desert to the tundra, who’d a’ thunk it eh? Let’s hope I don’t slip on the way to class. Three cheers for el nino!

Some would say that studying so hard that you forget to eat is a virtue. As for me, I’m not too sure myself. I am spinning down this cycle far too often.

This vacation wasn’t the most spectacular, but I had fun not studying nonetheless. I never got to finish Final Fantasy 12. I spent at least half the time waiting for a ride. There were no good parties. I saw a minimal amount of people (none of the rares from high school might I add). Although it wasn’t the most event-filled, I thought this break went by really fast. I’m not ready to go back. Ugh.

Come to think of it, if I had to label this winter break, I’d call it the Winter of Visitors. Yes…not the most creative and cool sounding but it gets to the point. A lot of people came to visit this time around, and I was glad to show everyone around. I guess that was a highlight. Also snowboarding I guess. I can’t think of anything else that really, really, really caught my memory.