Sometimes I just feel like wasting money.

Protected:

What would I change my major to,
If I don’t get into business school?

Finished my philosophy outline tonight (sorta).
So I decided to reward myself by taking pictures of my room.

I got my wall decals & photo sleeve in last week.

This is where I work. Step into my office.

My closet/ghetto prep. area.

My hamster, Pele’. Like the goddess of volcanoes/the soccer player.

Also this is completely a tangent:

Me and my study group had a realization while going over accounting.
‘ The syllabus states that we should study accounting at least 3 hours a day. Multiply that by 3 classes a day and that’s 9 hours. Add 6 hours of classes themselves. Then 8 hours of sleep. And the hour you have left is for eating, showering, and walking to class. ‘

HAHAHA

I got accepted into a study abroad program to Berlin, Germany for a month.

Although it was my goal to travel abroad this summer again, I feel like I’m only settling for this one. I would much rather go to some place in Asia, but Europe is an entirely different environment for me to adapt to. I think it would be interesting but maybe it’s fear that is making me reluctant. I have still yet to sign the contract, saying that I will go here for sure. Now that it’s down to the wire, I’m not as sure as I was before on my intentions for going. Would this be the best choice for me?

Perhaps it’s just me fearing another major choice. After weighing my options, everything seems to go in favor of Germany. However, the main issue I face is whether I really will enjoy myself there. This is an issue that only time can resolve. Okay — thanks blog. After writing to myself, and getting the thought process rolling, I have decided. I’m going to be studying abroad in Berlin this summer!

My hamster escaped.

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Nevermind, I found him in the hallway.

Today was in one word, “R e f r e s h i n g !”

Although I had quit Southwestern, I still formed incredible friendships with those who I met. Coincidentally I had some of them in my philosophy class. While studying today, three of us wanted grab something to eat. This led to us calling everyone from the summer to come along and join us. Haha it was excellent. So spur of the moment, so lucky for everyone to be free.
At dinner it felt as if it were old times again. Back during the summer, every Sunday we’d meet up and have a big group dinner somewhere in New York, Jersey, or something. We’d just talk about random and get wild things off our mind because we all hadn’t seen each other in merely a week. It somewhat felt the same tonight. I haven’t seen these people in ages since I quit, and it was hilarious catching up with everyone and sharing stupid stories in general. I haven’t had such heartfelt laughs in such a long time.

I really, really needed a night like this.
I am so thankful to have met this group who I have really grown to cherish.

Sigh. Nothing is going my way today.
I haven’t spiraled down like this in a while.
I guess it was about time, huh.

—UPDATE—

Perhaps it was more than just bad luck.
Do you ever feel as if sometimes you were cursed,
as if something sinister were lingering, causing misfortune?

For example yesterday –
– No matter my intention, the ends met no good result.
– I kept hurting myself unintentionally: paper cut on my palm, bit the inside of my mouth, cut my knee with my textbook, fell off a chair and scrapped my elbows, punched myself in the eye while I was sleeping (for which the reason I am blogging at 7am Friday morning).

This is really really really really weird.
I can’t be THAT incompetent, can I?

Ionno.

“There are more things in heaven&earth, Horatio,
Than are dreamt of in your philosophy.”

……either that or I’m just trying to justify my suckiness through the paranormal. Either way. I punched myself at 5am. It’s 7:30 now. Oh woe is me…….