Agitations from the Past

A lot of thing on my mind today. Negative things, in fact.

I feel the need to really separate myself from T.D. Wang. I keep trying to tie in my old life with the present, which is turning out to yield these unsettling emotions within me. The past is the past for a reason. It’s darkness which I have moved away from. I need to keep going forward, toward the light.

Specifically, I was given the runaround on a PR request. It was a slight gesture but nonetheless reminded me of working in that type of unbearable environment not even less than a year ago. I don’t miss it. And like all things you want to be rid of, you should quit it cold turkey lest you invite negativity back in.

I also took another life lesson from this. Once again I need to remind myself not to depend on others. Sure, people say you should ask for help when you need it, but it’s always a challenge to determine the fine line between asking for help and being lazy. I want to be self-dependent. I don’t want to depend on anyone because I’ve been prone to be let down. Let down a lot within the past year, actually. Overall, this advice to myself should be heeded more often. Today was just a grueling reminder.