Hermitage

Dang. I’m feeling a hermitage stage coming on again.

I haven’t been meeting any new people, and since quitting Yuen Lui, I have a lot more time of my hands. I guess now there’s more opportunity for me to sit and reflect, which can actually be a very dangerous thing. I wonder what I should do to occupy my time that does not, concurrently, lead to me wasting more money.

Perhaps I should dedicate time to no TV. I find that it melts my brain. Haha. Let’s take up to writing and reading instead. I guess that’s what prompted me to want to blog again today. I’ll take some of this downtime and make some beneficial changes in my life. On the other hand, I’m feeling a giant disconnect between me and my peers. I don’t really hang out and find myself on new adventures anymore. Everything seems a bit mundane. Invoke Stacie Orrico’s “More to Life” theme song here.

I suppose if I objectively view my life, it’s just filled with sporadic and small periods where I’m doing nothing. Those are the times that my mind goes crazy. But, c’mon, I’m going to New York in a few weeks. In a few weeks after that, I’m going back to Vegas for a few days. In a few weeks after that, I might be interviewing for a new job. Things are pretty exciting in my life…but, as all humans are, I yearn for more – to fill the voids which I find insufficient.

I’m looking for more social interaction! And I’m afraid that friends are either drifting away or have false intentions where I’m merely used and tossed aside. If it sucks now, I can only imagine how this situation might evolve when I’m living in another city. Scary, dismal circumstances. To live a life of adventure alone. That is a big fear of mine.