30-Day Blog Challenge: 14

Day 14: Someone who has made your life worth living.
This is a great question. I never really gave it much thought. In actuality, I’ve built my character around myself for so long, it’s been hard allowing anyone else to define my own life — making it “worth living.”

Ever since middle school, my life has revolved around popularity. Even though I try to deny that notion now, I must admit that my actions are still dictated by what others think of me. All the while, I’ve tried to live life according to my rules. I’ve built many things with my own two hands and allowed many other things to be destroyed. I own and accept all of my decisions and thus have really been self-reliant for so long. If I were to stop writing and analyzing here, I would be the only one who has made my life worth living.

But then again, I can’t forget my parents. They are more an influence to me than I could have ever imagined. Growing up, everyone wants to deny that they’ll become like those who raised them. How little I knew back then how much I’d be a reflection of them now. It’s quite funny actually. I laugh, but in doing so realize the love for my family compels many of my actions and rationale. A lot of what I do is to please them. Western cultures say it should be all about myself, but the Eastern philosophy inherently residing in my brain is telling me otherwise.

So far me and my family create the greatest worth. However, people would expect the obvious and typical answers to be ‘my children’ or ‘significant other’, of which at the moment, I have neither. I pray that one day I can look back and revise this entry with both of them impacting my life. Just because it’s lacking at the moment doesn’t mean I don’t hope to one day have them motivating what I define “a life worth living.”