All choked up over Christmas

Listening to different renditions of ‘I’ll Be Home for Christmas’ is getting me all teary-eyed. I remember last year, I spent it in Seattle working in a dead-end job, somewhat loathing myself for not achieving more, and unable to leave because I was required there for the busy season. Step into the future, and now, I am so thankful in having the opportunity to travel back for even just a few days.

How could I ever have spent a full year away from family? I shock myself and wonder how driven (or selfish) I could really be to have done such a thing. I am not sure if I even wrote an entry back then, but the lyrics to this song are very fitting. “I’ll be home for Christmas, if only in my dreams.” Unbelievably stirring.

Though this time it’s different. I can resolve to do so much in the coming year and for the rest of my life for self-improvement, but really, I just want to enjoy my time there without over thinking it. Really cannot wait to just sit there and see familiar faces. I just want to bask in the company of family.