I got accepted into a study abroad program to Berlin, Germany for a month.

Although it was my goal to travel abroad this summer again, I feel like I’m only settling for this one. I would much rather go to some place in Asia, but Europe is an entirely different environment for me to adapt to. I think it would be interesting but maybe it’s fear that is making me reluctant. I have still yet to sign the contract, saying that I will go here for sure. Now that it’s down to the wire, I’m not as sure as I was before on my intentions for going. Would this be the best choice for me?

Perhaps it’s just me fearing another major choice. After weighing my options, everything seems to go in favor of Germany. However, the main issue I face is whether I really will enjoy myself there. This is an issue that only time can resolve. Okay — thanks blog. After writing to myself, and getting the thought process rolling, I have decided. I’m going to be studying abroad in Berlin this summer!

My hamster escaped.

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Nevermind, I found him in the hallway.

Today was in one word, “R e f r e s h i n g !”

Although I had quit Southwestern, I still formed incredible friendships with those who I met. Coincidentally I had some of them in my philosophy class. While studying today, three of us wanted grab something to eat. This led to us calling everyone from the summer to come along and join us. Haha it was excellent. So spur of the moment, so lucky for everyone to be free.
At dinner it felt as if it were old times again. Back during the summer, every Sunday we’d meet up and have a big group dinner somewhere in New York, Jersey, or something. We’d just talk about random and get wild things off our mind because we all hadn’t seen each other in merely a week. It somewhat felt the same tonight. I haven’t seen these people in ages since I quit, and it was hilarious catching up with everyone and sharing stupid stories in general. I haven’t had such heartfelt laughs in such a long time.

I really, really needed a night like this.
I am so thankful to have met this group who I have really grown to cherish.

Sigh. Nothing is going my way today.
I haven’t spiraled down like this in a while.
I guess it was about time, huh.

—UPDATE—

Perhaps it was more than just bad luck.
Do you ever feel as if sometimes you were cursed,
as if something sinister were lingering, causing misfortune?

For example yesterday –
– No matter my intention, the ends met no good result.
– I kept hurting myself unintentionally: paper cut on my palm, bit the inside of my mouth, cut my knee with my textbook, fell off a chair and scrapped my elbows, punched myself in the eye while I was sleeping (for which the reason I am blogging at 7am Friday morning).

This is really really really really weird.
I can’t be THAT incompetent, can I?

Ionno.

“There are more things in heaven&earth, Horatio,
Than are dreamt of in your philosophy.”

……either that or I’m just trying to justify my suckiness through the paranormal. Either way. I punched myself at 5am. It’s 7:30 now. Oh woe is me…….

Does anyone else know how it feels like to study like mad, understand the material, then finish the exam in a breeze, only to discover that you got one of the lowest scores in the class?

Well. I do. And it feels like shit.

AAAAHHHHH!!!!
I’ve had so much random tangent stuff to blog about lately.
Here’s some bullet-point style just to cut to the chase:

Ditched karaoking w/ the roommates today in favor of quiet privacy. I ended up having a movie night all to myself where I found Babel to be a pretty good movie. It astounds me how the American image has degraded in the past several years. I wonder how its perception will change after 2009, rather how much it will struggle to reconstruct.

I think philosophy is the most pointless subject.

Yes, I know it’s good to be intellectually stimulated by discussing topics in-depth or whatev. But when we just keep going around and around in circles, I really don’t see the point. People are going to spend more time arguing about a solution than actually going out and doing something about it. Not only that, but I find it so meaningless when one has to question EVERY SINGLE THING around them, how can one actually just sit back and enjoy life for what it is. Like…you question the origin of the chair and the morality of making chairs and whether the production of chairs is essential to society or whatnot OMG HOW STUPID. I seem to be the only business major in this class. Maybe that’s why I don’t see the intricacies of it. Either way, at every lecture I complain to myself about how I am wasting my time but it’s too late to drop the course. No matter. I’ll just have to tough it out until the end of the quarter, and now I know never to touch a philosophy course again. I don’t even get the type of credits I need to fulfill anything toward my graduating. POINTLESS INDEED.

This was more of a rant entry than anything – now it’s off to my philosophy quiz section where I can listen to people argue about insignificant subjects for the next hour.

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UPDATE!

I cooked my own concoction for the first time tonight!
I’m so proud of myself wah h ah ahaha!!!

As a reward to myself for finishing my accounting midterm (regardless of the horrible grade), I watched ‘My Sassy Girl’ again. Gaaaaaaaaaaah I loved it just as much as when I watched it the first time.

Starting from this week it’s going to be a rollercoaster of schoolwork:
midterms every week, application deadlines, business writing exam.
This is looking to become one of the most miserable quarters yet…

I have begun my hermit phase once more.